I’ve been home for a little over a month now and my life has gotten more complicated than I had ever anticipated. I’ve been in and out of dr.s offices and therapists. None of them want to deal with me. My family has had enough and now I can no longer go to them for the support I thought they were giving me. My own mother beat the crap out of me because she thinks that’s what I want to do to myself. And now she is back into her pretent world like it never happened. I did so well at safe. I want that feeling back but I have lost all control of my life. There is no safe place here for me anymore. My therapist dropped me cause my dad kept harrassing her. Why wasn’t I better?! Hello!!!
I haven’t SI in two weeks and it is so hard. But I remain determined to stick to my goals. I am worth something. I am!