I am 28 and I am a self injurer. I used to do it often but then stopped over 2 years ago when I met my current boyfriend. He doesn’t know I had injured in the past. Then just today I was at work and injured. Now I have to hide it from him until it heals. I don’t know if he could ever stay with me if he ever found out. He knows I am feeling bad and he has done everything to encourage me and love me. But his brother is messed up (more than me apparently) and his brother used to do things like this and because of that he will never talk to his brother again. I am scared he will never look at me the same way again if he knew. So I have to hide my injury for a week from him until it heals and fades away. I just have to stop doing this somehow.
I think that if this guy really loves you he would understand. But it sounds like he don’t if he doesnt talk to his brother who does this too. I would try to talk to him about it, start out by telling him how you’ve been feeling then if the time is right tell him about the SI. That will help you feel less guilty and ashamed (which probably makes you feel more like SI) Have you tried talking to a counselor?
he doesn’t sound like a good guy if he would leave you over SI.