I SI’d again. I feel hopeless, like everything i do isn’t doing any good, its just making everything worse. I don’t even know how to keep going sometimes. I tell myself to just breath. but lately that isn’t working. I feel alone, helpless, and confused. but mostly i feel hurt. Then that makes me feel weak. idk.. its frustrating. That whole one day at a time thing isn’t working because that one day, something bad happens and i mess up. I was doing good for 3 weeks or so without SI’ing and ignoring those impulses and then.. out of nowhere a terrible day came and i couldn’t do anything about it. I felt like i lost control and just had to because i didn’t have anywhere else to turn to.