I SI’d again. I feel hopeless, like everything i do isn’t doing any good, its just making everything worse. I don’t even know how to keep going sometimes. I tell myself to just breath. but lately that isn’t working. I feel alone, helpless, and confused. but mostly i feel hurt. Then that makes me feel weak. idk.. its frustrating. That whole one day at a time thing isn’t working because that one day, something bad happens and i mess up. I was doing good for 3 weeks or so without SI’ing and ignoring those impulses and then.. out of nowhere a terrible day came and i couldn’t do anything about it. I felt like i lost control and just had to because i didn’t have anywhere else to turn to.
“To acquire knowledge, one must study; but to acquire wisdom, one must observe”. Marilyn Vos Savant
There are many people who post about surviving the hard times, without S.I. I encourage you to read their posts, ask questions, and try using impulse control logs.
Karen Conterio
I’ve been where you are SO many times but now I know I’m NOT hopeless. I have a CHOICE in what I do.
Yes, at SAFE I had people there with me to help but it was still my choice if I wanted to injure I could. But I chose not to..as can you and every other person who self-injures.
“you are so strong, and don’t even know it. Even when you are injuring you are stronger than you know” one of our therapists at SAFE told us that a number of times.
Its your choice, next time journal or log…”you don’t try, you either do or don’t do”