I cant hold myself together anymore but i cant break down. I feel like i cant. Not now not with how things are the way they are. Im supposed to be the strong on and I cant be anymore. But i dont know how to change roles because who will take mine? you know? I dont know what to do… or how to do it..
I’m not the strongest one out there–by a lot. But when the situation demanded it of me, when I was young and defending my sisters, I became strong to cope. I got an Atlas complex; I thought I had to do everything and hold the world on my shoulders. One thing I learned (the hard way) is that nobody is strong enough to handle the world. Turning to God is a good way for some people to relieve pressure, because He has no limit to what He can hold. If you don’t believe that, though, turn to your friends… We live in a human society, one in which we try to work together to accomplish goals. Being alone doesn’t work because we’re not meant to be alone. As far as how to glue yourself together, but not too tightly, just ask. Find someone to tell your feelings to: a friend, a parent (though those aren’t often good choices), a notebook. I can guarantee that you won’t feel quite better at first… but it’s a process. Release the pressure… one bit a a time.