Im backsliding and i cant seem to catch myself. Iv si’d twice this week. I havent done it twice in one week since like june. I need help. I dont want to go back to the hospital, but i falling right back where i used to be. I have a great therapist who i see once a week and email multiple times a day, but it still doesnt seem like enough. I just cant seem to get out of this hole that im falling into.