Im backsliding and i cant seem to catch myself.  Iv si’d twice this week.  I havent done it twice in one week since like june.  I need help.  I dont want to go back to the hospital, but i falling right back where i used to be.  I have a great therapist who i see once a week and email multiple times a day, but it still doesnt seem like enough.  I just cant seem to get out of this hole that im falling into.