I’ve found a new girlfriend, and I think I’ve fallen in love again. I’m just not sure. Because if I wasn’t in love with the last girl, and I thought I was, how am I supposed to know what “love” feels like?
And don’t try to answer this question, because none of you know.
I want to go smoke a cigarette, but I don’t feel like going outside right now, even though it’s absolutely beautiful out there. Foggy, almost full moon, not cold or warm but nice.
Oh, and I think I may be having a child now. Of course, that’s going to make me kill myself because I can NOT handle a kid. Yes yes, it’s my fault right? Yeah, it is. But it’s not my fault the condom broke. So don’t try to go all “I’m an adult, I know more than you” on me…because I’m an adult too. I’m just not financially sound enough to support myself, let alone a pregnant girl then a child and a girlfriend. I’m not even sound enough to afford an apartment by myself, and that’s how it’s going to be. I mean, come on! I can barely afford my car insurance every month. How is this going to play out?
I love kids. But I don’t know if I can deal with one of my own. But I feel my heart right now, and I can’t help but smile on the inside. I feel great because there may be another li’l me runnin’ ’round this world, raisin’ Hell just like me. I want a kid, but I don’t, all at the same time. It kinda sucks, but I’m half way looking forward to it.
But now I’m done typing because I’m sick and tired of this piece o’ crap keyboard not typing all of my letters out like it’s supposed to.