The last time I self harmed was on September 11th. Right now I’m struggling w/ urges and a vicious cycle of rampant thoughts. My only relief is writing. Well and talking to my t. I’m in college, my grades are good I have A’s. It’s just so hard to be mugging on the outside and dying on the inside. Injuring helps people ‘see’ that I need help. By not injuring it’s harder to get people to notice that “hello I’m not ok over here”, you know? Bluhh….