I have been having the worst couple of days and i SI’d. i was discharged from the S.A.F.E. program friday september 22. I feel like im backsliding and i just dont know what to do.
I”m sorry to hear that you injured, but you’re not washed up, sort of speak, because of it. You have the tools needed to pick back up from what you learned at SAFE. Are you logging? That is very important. Take it as a lessoned learned and just go on. I know it’s not that easy, but just do it as Nike says. Just do it.
Hi, this is Kelly. I was there at that time, I think still inpatient and just about to be dc’ed to PHP. I graduated on Sept. 5th.
I understand what you are talkikng about b/c I did some backsliding too. At first I was really down about it and hard on myself like, “oh no, I’m going to go back and do that same thing before as if I didn’t learn anything or that nothing has changed”. Well, I did SI and it was okay b/c it passed and more importantly it just wasn’t the same for me. I didn’t get anything out of it other than a temporary relief but even that wasn’t satisfying like it used to be. I have no idea if it was like that for you.
One thing I remember is when Kristy did a group with the inpt. and drew a spiral gradually going uphill on the board. It illustrated that to make progress, each loop that goes forward has to go backwards a little bit. So don’t be so hard on yourself. Sure it’s a step back but make it just one step back and keep pushing forward. Some days are going to be easier or harder than others so take it one day at a time. And sometimes that will have to be a day where you take it an hour at a time. At least sometimes I have to do that on bad days where I feel overwhelmed.
Remember, day by day, hour by hour, a conscious choice!
Oops im sorry thats august 22
I”m sorry to hear that you injured, but you’re not washed up, sort of speak, because of it. You have the tools needed to pick back up from what you learned at SAFE. Are you logging? That is very important. Take it as a lessoned learned and just go on. I know it’s not that easy, but just do it as Nike says. Just do it.
Hi, this is Kelly. I was there at that time, I think still inpatient and just about to be dc’ed to PHP. I graduated on Sept. 5th.
I understand what you are talkikng about b/c I did some backsliding too. At first I was really down about it and hard on myself like, “oh no, I’m going to go back and do that same thing before as if I didn’t learn anything or that nothing has changed”. Well, I did SI and it was okay b/c it passed and more importantly it just wasn’t the same for me. I didn’t get anything out of it other than a temporary relief but even that wasn’t satisfying like it used to be. I have no idea if it was like that for you.
One thing I remember is when Kristy did a group with the inpt. and drew a spiral gradually going uphill on the board. It illustrated that to make progress, each loop that goes forward has to go backwards a little bit. So don’t be so hard on yourself. Sure it’s a step back but make it just one step back and keep pushing forward. Some days are going to be easier or harder than others so take it one day at a time. And sometimes that will have to be a day where you take it an hour at a time. At least sometimes I have to do that on bad days where I feel overwhelmed.
Remember, day by day, hour by hour, a conscious choice!
*big hugs*