I went with a date I thought ‘hey I wont feel so alone this year’ I was wrong. I only felt worse he was a friend last year from biology class when I was a freshman as was he. Now I thought I liked him as more than a friend but now I just wanna run and hide b/c apparently were dating now due to my friend I dont want to be. I feel alone when I’m single but I feel even more alone when I’m with a date. I want to be loved and get married and have little babies running around but then why do I not want to have a high school bf? Why would I not want to hold someones hand in the hallway if I want a family of my own in the far future?