I have thoughts of hurting myself every now and again even when i was real little, but nothing serious. Last year my best friend started SI-ing and i gave it a try. After the first two times my mom found out and after that i stopped for a while. Then my moms boyfriend who we have been living with for 8 years went back on drugs for the FIFTH time. My mom ended up leaving him and i started SI-ing again even though i promised i wouldnt. My mom was torn up pretty bad from him so she didnt even notice. Now she has a boyfriend and sometimes i think she doesnt care anymore and that i was just a mistake to always be dragged along. But im not really concerned with myself on this one. See my friend is a preppy person who talks non stop real fast. She loves attention and has a lot of friends but she still hasnt stopped. She tried when i did and when i couldnt she couldnt either. She now says that she wont live to see college and talks about it very easily. Im worried because i dont know if shes joking or not and if she is joking why would she?? When i talk to her about it she puts in my face that im no bettter because im the same as her. She says that she just speaks it and i know shes right. My other friend doesnt understand why we would ever want to hurt ourselves and yells at us constantly. So now im trying real hard to be something im not….a normal high school girl and BOTH of them are on my case about it. Im totally confused…. not to meantion i feel responisble for my friend SI-ing herself and my other friends constant worrying about the both of us. What do i do about my friends??
first of all and most important you are not some mistake to your mom she loves you very much and doesn’t even want to think of the possibility that you would do that to yourself,it is not your fault at all what your friend is doing, and for yu top being who you aren’t make yourself that person instead of pretending i know ho hard it is to stop one of the hardest things no The hardest thing i have ever done but i got help. i was in safe and it was the bes choice i have ever made in my life the choice to tell my mom i have a problem and i need help i just wish that i had said that before i got rushed to the hospital and before i got sent home from camp. you still have that choice tell your mom it will be so much better after. ok Second of allyour other friend who si’s too you need to show her that YOU are making an effort and try to convince her too. she needs help and she needs it fast. people dont joke about this.it is really serious.but watever you do dont put her before you. and third for your other friend. she doesnt understand how hard this is or what you are going through tell her you are having problems but really trying your hardest to get better and make sure that statement is true!!!!!!!you and your friends need to remember that so many people in you lives love you so much and you guys matter this feels like it is happening but it is causing more stress and just screwing up your lives. hang in there it will get better
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I’ve been in about the same place (kinda) see none of my best friends SI but I told them I did who told my mom of course now I have promised that I never did it (LIE) and I wanna go back. Now here’s where we get similar none of my friends get why I’d SI myself on purpose. Those who don’t do it will never get it and that’s what u need to tell that friend those who don’t SI will never understand why u do it they done get why u would handle ur problems by hurting urself. As for ur other friend go and talk to someone like a counselor at ur school u guys obviously need help so get it don’t wait believe me I’m still waiting and suffering.
woah. when i read ur blog i swear i thought you were talking about me. that is the exact situation that has happened with me and my 2 best friends. in the story i wuld b ur friend who started SI-ing and you feel like its all ur fault. well for me i do not blame my friends who showed me about SI-ing. its not there fault nor is it yours. if my friend hadnt SI-ed and gave me the idea i still wuld have learned to do it from someone or somewhere else or maybe i wuld have done something worse. its not ur fault! also im a high school girl just trying to be normal and its hard. im not gonna lie but what helps is just trying to have fun and relaxing. take one day at a time and dont think of the bad things. ive recently just started SI-ing again and i no its wrong and not the answer but i cannot stop. life will bring you down but then you will go up again. your mom loves you and cannot ever 4get u, even if she is preoccupied she still will always love you more than any boyfriend. i hope things turn out good for you.