has anyone who has left SAFE or a tx program for that matter-realized later on that they opened a huge ass can of worms (so to speak)while at SAFE or wherever?

Im trying to figure out where to go from here with some trauma stuff. Oh how I wish I was back in SAFE-I questioned if I went at the right time-as if I hadnt reached ‘rock bottom’ or something-which I know that I did. and I dont regret my going to SAFE when I did-and Ive remained SI free-for almost two months now.. (yay!)Im trying to figure out if I need to find a new therapist essentially amongst some other things-I feel like I have hit a brick wall with my current t, although she is awesome and I have seen her for three years now-I think it might be time to move on and Im not really sure how to do that-

I found that while I was at SAFE having people that didnt know me, seemed to help me verbalize how I was feeling-and then I came back home and its like I didnt have to ‘FIGHT’ to be here-so I just fall back into my dreaded silence-which is what essentially destroyed me.. prior to SAFE.. so how do I SNAP out of it and find my voice again? even though I dont have all of the amazing people at SAFE around me? Im extremely frustrated because I feel like I was able to accomplish so much at SAFE all to come home and revert backwards.. sort of…..*sigh*