I am such a failure…and freak. I don’t understand why I didn’t turn to something more socially acceptable like alcohol as a negative coping skill; When I go to SAFE Intensive next week, no one will see my scars, although I’ve had several trips to both the operating room and emergency room due to my SI. What if I die from this? I’m so tired!!! And in a lot of discomfort. I’d much rather die than continue this struggle!!! I plan to give the SAFE program my ALL. My life depends on it; it is my last hope. I’m so scared! What if it doesn’t help? Will I be seen as a freak even at SAFE because of where I SI?