Just wondering if anyone is willing to share their story with me? Why did you start SI and When? I am hoping that it will answer questions that I am looking for in myself.

I started when I was 11. Don’t know why. Just remember I felt no pain, and it made me feel a little better emotionally. My parents found out as well as the school and it caused alot of problems. I tried hiding it but when my parents saw they got very mad. made me throw out all my toys and stuff, and checked my body all the time for injuries. I stopped for a my high school years in fear of being taken away from my family and I was sick of being riduculed by my family. I joined the AF and all the emotions came back. I started SI again when I got to Tech School (after graduating basic) I couldnt deal with the emotions and when i tried to talk to people they blew it off as nothing. They realized then I was serious and needed help. They listened to me but then they got frustrated because I couldnt stop. They gave up on me, threw me into hospitals. I made it to my next duty station and was ok for a few months. Christmas time came and I was alone and depressed. I started SI again. Everything bothered me and the therapist I was seeing on base just made it worse… threatining me that the AF will kick me out if I dont stop SI. They eventually did. So now I am a civilian again, still SI. I try to talk to people before I SI; to try to stop. Still havent found the key to that yet……… so thats my story- short version…