I’m new to this website, but I’m not very new to S.I.

I’ve been self-injuring since I was 11 years old. I’m 17 now and still am not able to stop. I have many scars on many different parts of my body and quite frankly i find them terribly embarrassing. And yet, the embarrassment is not enough to get me to quit.
Whenever I’m feeling depressed, S.I. is the first thing I want to do. Since I started dating my current boyfriend, I have to admit I don’t do it as frequently as I used to because he says it hurts him too. But every now and then, I will slip up.

Lately, I’ve been trying different alternatives. Sometimes they work and sometimes they don’t. On days like today when I’m feeling immense sadness, actual S.I. is all I think will work, but I haven’t slipped up yet.

Anyways, I came here because I know other people here can relate and know exactly how I feel. I figure something like this may help me overcome the urges I get.

If you have any words of advice, I’d be more than glad to hear them.

-Saydie