Yea….so Ive s.i for almost 3 years. At the beginning I actually had real problems that I had to deal with and I didnt really have the strenght to deal with the problems directly, thats why I started s.i-ing. But frankly now, I just s.i because I like the pain. I dont know if its something wrong me, im being a hypocrite, or I dont know. My parents sent me to a therapist in Mexico to talk about my ‘problems’, but it didnt help. I mean…I just like injuring because I like the pain…So I really dont know what to do. None of my friends have ever tried to stop me, except one, which is a guy, but any of my other friends didnt really care, so I just kept on doing it. Now I dont know how to stop, or even if i WANT to stop.
Any Ideas?
Keep going to therapy. If you like the pain there has to be an underlining reason behind it. I also like the pain because it may me think about that other than what was really bothering me. I would suggest that you pick up the book “Bodily Harm” that could also help you figure out what is going on. Think about what you want to do instead og hurting yourself.
But therapy is in Mexico…And it didnt really help. But is it stupid just to keep on injuring because of the pain? I really dont know who Im hurting. I mean i just do it when Im either just stressed about school, or just want to feel the pain i so much like. I like feeling it, but again i dont really want to be hurting anyone near me without knowing it. Because I frankly dont mind hurting myself….Its just something thats fixed in my mind. I dont know why, but it cant get out.
One of the first things you need to realize that you are NOT pathetic – you are SO FAR from being pathetic. Yes, you have a problem – but you are not the only one. You aren’t alone – hopefully S.A.F.E. will help you realize this. There are so many people in the world who are willing to help you, it is just a matter of finding them. Don’t loose hope.