Although I am looking forward to getting help at SAFE in a couple of weeks, my body yearns to SI “one more time.”  I talked to a friend about these strong urges, and she compared my wanting to SI one more time to an alcoholic who’s about to go into rehab, goes out for one more night of drinking, and ends up killing herself or someone else in a drunk driving accident.  It’s all I can do to refrain from going to the store and buying my SI tool of choice.  I’ve been fighting these urges all week.  Weekends are tougher.  I don’t know how I’m going to make it through the weekend without giving in…