Although I am looking forward to getting help at SAFE in a couple of weeks, my body yearns to SI “one more time.” I talked to a friend about these strong urges, and she compared my wanting to SI one more time to an alcoholic who’s about to go into rehab, goes out for one more night of drinking, and ends up killing herself or someone else in a drunk driving accident. It’s all I can do to refrain from going to the store and buying my SI tool of choice. I’ve been fighting these urges all week. Weekends are tougher. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through the weekend without giving in…
That makes sense, and I agree with the comparison that your friend made to your urges to SI “one last time” to the alcoholic wanting to have “one more drinking night”
If you don’t think you can make it through the weekend, or anyday for that fact, then just email me and we can talk about it if you’d like. I’m here for you darling!
My email is:
Sarah_Valo18@yahoo.com
Tracy-
I totally understand what you are saying. I felt the same exact way prior to going to SAFE. Its a rush of OMG can I stop this? because I still really think I need it. write out how you are feeling on here if you think it will help you get through the moment. distract yourself.. I know its not easy but it helps
Cassie