Right now I’m tired and feeling really depressed about things. I’m trying to get out of where I live (I was abuse in this place). I’ve actually started looking for a new place, but when you live in New York it’s not easy. I can’t help, but feel like giving up because I feel that it won’t work out you see I’ve always had this theory that nothing ever works out for me. On top of wanting to give up I also want and feel the need to SI. I want to do it because then maybe I’ll stop thinking about hunting for a new place. I just feel like everything has closed in and I can’t get out and when I can’t get out that is when if feel the need to SI so my focus is on something else. The funny thing is that I went through the program and have been SI free for two months, but still the urge is really high and I don’t know what will happen tonight. I really don’t know.
Denise, don’t give up!! its not worth it! you can call me too. it goes both ways. You have gone such a long time with out si’ing. you can do it. i know it seems like its impossible. i have the same feeling. but it is. your two months is proof of that. two months is awesome!
Call me– it doesn’t matter what time. email me. you can just keep writing until the urges pass. i love to read 🙂
i wanna be able to help in anyway i can.
You can do it! look how far you’ve already come!
How did tonight turn out for you?
don’t give up1! i also love to read.. and i am a good listener.. i’m here anytime you need me! you have support.