July 14th-30th I was hospitalized for self-injury. Since then I’ve been living at IRT (Intensive Residential Treatment). I was living with my parents, but they won’t allow me to come back home until I can commit to not being suicidal again or S.I. again. Last year getting ECT (ElectroConvulsive Therapy) Treatments that turned things around. I’m starting a series of ECT treatments again this week hoping it will help again, but I feel like such a burden on people and want to S.I. so bad. I guess it’s good I’m at IRT.  I’ve just felt so low lately and want to cry tears and release all the pain. I don’t know what to do…………