im so done with people and their bs. i can never go hang out with my friends. i feel like running away everyday of my life. only aloud to see my boyfriend if he comes over or if my sister wants to go out . im 15 and i get treated lk im 4 . i have the responsablities of an adult but none of the privlage . i cant do anything unless my sister takes me . and most of the time she doesnt n im home. my friends talk about their weekends n how much fun they had and when they ask what i do i have to say nothing every time. i have been good with the s.i.since i got my new boyfriend because he makes me so happy but i dont know if i can stop even if he is in my life . it just hurts so much . i am so close to becoming crazy . 3 years till im 18 and im leaving.i dont care if i have to live in a box.
~ alone in this world ~
…but YOU ARE NOT AN ADULT YET, so try and enjoy being a teenager. You don’t have all the responsibilites of adulthood yet… no matter what you think! Do you work 2 jobs, go to school (college or graduate school), and do your own laundry? Do you cook all of your own meals and do the grocery shopping for the family and pay your medical insurance? Do you have to worry about what will happen if you get sick or hurt at work, then can’t work, and what will happen when your home phone (not your cell phone, because you can’t afford one) and electricity get turned off AND you get an eviction notice all in the same week?
I am sorry to hear you think your life IS NOT FUN… BUT fife is not all about having fun and many of us didn’t have “relaxing childhoods”, but we made it through and are functioning, independent adults — and in many our cases on here, survivors of self-injury. Dealing with self-injury as an adult only further complicates things, from our careers to our social situations to intimate things too. Self-injury is less accepted in adulthood, at least this is what I have experienced in my life. Everyone has expected me to have grown out of it and they always tell me how it is some teenager thing, which drives me crazy!
I live on my own, work 2 jobs just to pay my own bills, cannot afford medical insurance, and I worked my way through my undergraduate degree. I have had my electricity turned off and have been served an eviction notice, all within the last 2 weeks! This doesn’t mean I don’t have fun or make fun in my life… I just have fun “responsibly” and “maturely”. I take naps in my free time, work on one of my crochet projects that are being donated to charity, and walk (because I cannot afford a car) to the closest coffee shop to read a book and have the cheapest drink on the menu… just to get out of my lonely apartment. I go exercise or talk on the phone with a friend who lives far away or I hand write a letter to mail to a friend in town so she will get something besides bills in her mail box for a change.
Make the best of what you do have. You have a family, just from what you wrote you have expressed this. Why not try and get involved in something at school or church or within walking distance of your house? Then you don’t have to worry about someone else taking you somewhere … or simply take the public bus (if one exists in your city or town). Focus on school and find a way to get out of your house when you are 18 because you are going somewhere better, like to college with your college bills paid!
You have so much ahead of you and trust me when I say adults don’t focus on having fun in life, they focus on surviving life and getting through. Life isn’t about having fun, at least not in adulthood or when you are first starting out on your own. Fun, like you are describing it, comes with time and experience and maturity —- not necessarily “responsiblity”.
i do my own laundry i pay my own phhne bill without as job bc i cant leave so how i make the money every month is crazy i cook or my self i go to school from 7 30 to 3 i buy food my entire fam n make it for them i would love to do something near my town but i cant leave my house to do ne thing like tat
You are still a teenager and there are child labor laws that protect you from working like an adult. You are still a teenager, not an adult, and you don’t pay the rent or have a job that buys all of your food and your clothing — I’m sorry, but you are not adult and please stop lying and telling everyone on here that you are one. You are 15 and you do not have all of the responsibilites of an adult, so stop expecting to be treated like one.
If you are physical or emotionally in danger, please reach out to someone in your community that can help you get out of your house.