ugh. almost everything makes me want to s.i. the smallest smallest thing that i could have done that NO ONE will remember in 5 minutes makes me want to self injure. i still self injure remembering stuff i did or stuff people said to me years ago. i try to replace s.i. with something else but i cant! i tried to replace it with practicing my clarinet, but everytime i mess up a note, i need to s.i. i tried to replace it with coloring, everytime i accidently got a little bit out of the lines, i needed to s.i.
i think i s.i. because i don’t know how to deal with my mistakes. my parents and siblings used to point out my mistakes all the time.
i’ll get mad at somone and i’m to scared to confront people so instead of confronting that person i just go s.i. somone will make me sad and i’ll just go and s.i.
ugh. i dont know anything else to do besides go and s.i. for everything!
My thoughts always go to self-injury first when I feel or experience anything strong – whether it be a good thing or a bad thing happening in my life, I learned that I could turn to self-injury… I hate how my thoughts immediately resort to wanting to hurt myself when I’m feeling *strongly*, but they do go there. Now I just have to work harder to consciously push through those thoughts and not allow the thoughts to become actions. I have found that over time the thoughts might not go always away, but my ability to not act on the thoughts has become stronger.
I understand what your going through I do the same thing. I always thought that I was no good and everyone look at me like I’m a stranger every little mistake that my family made automatically became my mistakes and that’s where the pressure build to where I had to do it. Don’t give up maybe you should think about reading a book take a break from everything and when times get rough step back and take a deep breath.