I did it! i just couldn’t handle it and now i’m frustrated with myself. espcially since i still want to do it right now! Will i ever learn? I know it’ll take time working through everything but i feel like i don’t have time. i need to stop this now before i go too far cause each time is deeper and closer. I need to hurt myself like i need air. I don’t deserve anything more!
Just remember that when we decide to hurt ourselves, we are taking the easy way out of the situation. It is so much easier to hold everything in, than it is to let everything out. You slipped up and now it is time to move on — try and focus on how you resist hurting yourself next time, even if just for a few minutes longer than you were able to refrain this time.
Believe me I know it’s not easy (about the time thing) I’ve been there. I’ve been through the program and read the book and I learned to just take it slow and easy everything will fall in place. You do deserve more than you think you just can’t see it yet. Focus on the present and if you can go by not hurting yourself you will make it. This whole thing is like taking your first step eventually you push ahead and you go slow and steady. Take time out to take a deep breath and do somethting you love doing that might help also. LOVE
I usually feel like SIing but when I do I draw, write, cuss, or walked my dog REALLY long (which drives my family crazy). Just try to keep your mind off of it and it usually helps. My friend tells me when I feel like SIing to get away from everything I can hurt myself with. He was the one who gave me this website and he has stopped SIing for 3 months because of this program. He says that if you have enough hope that you can get through just about anything. So just remember you have Friends, hope, and love on your side. ANd hey if you just need to vent you can always just E-mail us. ^_^ Your friend, Original aka Squiggle Monster.