I’m in a relativly good mood and had a pretty good day and right now i’m sitting here wanting to SI just because. I just feel like i need it. I’ve had this before, when i was happy and still wanted to SI. i guess its just out of habit and that i miss the pain. i’m not sure but i just wish it would go away! Sometimes its all that i can think of and any little thing can trigger it and than i totally obsess over it. No matter how hard  i try to think about other things.  I hate this!