Hi Im Sasha. Im new to this site. I am 18. I was in the S.A.F.E program back in February. It really helped but it didnt last long because I was in a short-term hospital at the time. So yeah I would really like to get back in the program but I only have Medicaid til the end of this month. I recently S.I about 3 days ago. I know this is a stupid reason but it had a lot to do with my ex-boyfriend.
We were together almost 3 months. We were living together with his family. I came home for a week to visit my family and I ended up cheating on him. He found out a month later and told me he would give me another chance but then I guess he changed him mind. Now I am back home with my grandmother. Trying to find a job and save the money to get a G.E.D.
I am really depressed. I can barely sleep and I cant stop thinking about him. I am trying sooooo hard to get him back. I have been talking to him on the phone for the past 2 days. I actually asked him to give me another chance. He told me he would think about it. That was on Monday. Its almost Wednesday (11:42pm). I talked to him earlier and he told me he would call me back but he never did.
I keep beating myself up over this. I feel so guilty. I shouldnt have cheated on him. He knows how sorry I am. I just want him back. I really want to S.I right now. He knows I did it a few days ago. He was upset. He told me if I did it again he would stop talking to me. Which would make things 10,ooo times worse. I just dont know what to do.
I am considering hospitalization again. I need something. I am not on any meds anymore. I havent been for 4 or 5 months. I really need some advise.
-Sasha
Sasha, I’m going through a lot of the same things that you are going through at the moment. If you ever need to talk, to someone who can relate to you and what you are going through and feeling, you can always email me.
My email is:
Sarah_Valo18@yahoo.com
Look I know how you feel Sasha If you need someone to talk to…. my email is: allydaniel129@yahoo.com and I have done the same thing except i’m only 15 going on 16. I just started SIing like last week. I was already thinking about offing myself and my friend sent my to http://www.twloha.com this site was there and I decided to join today. Just remember you always have friends. I’m praying for you. :3