Today it will be a month since I’m back from S.A.F.E. Program and I’m feeling depressed.  I have thought about what would happen if after all this time I SI would anyone care or just turn their back on me.  I’m feeling especially hopeless because I feel that I will not be getting out of where I’ve been living and where most of the abuse happen.  I’ve been trying to look for a place, but I never get anything good out of anything and I know I will be forever trapped in this hell hole I live in.  Today my urge to hurt myself is really more intense than it’s ever been and I figure if I blog it might help, but the thoughts are getting to be too much and I don’t know what else to do.