Someone pointed out some scars I have in public and loudly asked, “Did you SI?” I’ve never been confronted about them so directly and I felt myself sweating and getting really hot. I also felt sort of proud for having them and having gone through S.I. I replied, “No.” And he said, “Then where did you get those from?” And I told him politely that I didn’t want to talk about it. We were in the middle of a store on a school trip thing. And I ended up having my first panic attack there. All of these feelings are really new to me because I just never really thought about what I was doing before. It just felt right and safe to S.I. I don’t even want to do it anymore.