I know that my therapist and pyschatrist say they’re glad to see me because it’s all part of their job description.  I plan on getting out of seeing the both of them because I still feel that I am not worth taking care of and that their time is worth spent with someone who cares.  Today I’m not really in a good spot as in regards to keeping focus and I need help because I don’t want to go back doing what I haven’t done in a month.