I just feel like my life will be like this for forever! i really don’t think i can go on like this. i’m in counseling right now and its going really well but i’m having the hardest time with wanting to SI right now.  i’m going on eight years since i started and just feel so trapped in everything i’ve gotten myself into. i’m trying to find replacements for it but nothing seems to equal up to self injuring. its on my mind 24/7 and no matter how hard i try its always there and almost anything can trigger thoughts of it.  i’m so frustrated!!