I feel like even though I have friends, and people who claim to ‘love me’ that there just isn’t much of a reason to get up every day. Sometimes I S.I. When I am at school or another place and I accidently SI on something I suddenly am reminded why I was in a bad mood to begin with. Like a personal reminder if you will. I want to stop I really do, but when I try I end up crying and doing it anyway. I need help or advice.