I really don’t think I will ever get better. The help is out there, but there is no way I could ever afford it. Because of that, there is no hope. I can’t do this on my own. Sometimes I want to die so bad just to make it all go away. It hurts so bad to stay alive……
you can get better!!!! you have to beleive you can and you have to truly want to get better. si is not an addiction its a choice and you have to choose to get better. there is hope!! find strength in famiy..friends..a religion..find strength in yourself. it gets better i promise. i was suicidal for years and i honestly never thought i would get out of it…i never wanted to get out of it…honestly if someone had told me i would be alive and happy in a few years i never would have beleived it..you just have to keep fighting. stay strong.
I know what you mean by treatment costing too much, as I am in a similar boat. Just remember that there are many forms of help out there, not just going to SAFE or going to a counselor. You can often find support and help in other areas such as by participating in church recovery groups, school or church counselors (which are often free), gov assistance counseling programs, addiction group meetings that are free and open to the public (it might be more general, but it can work), or going to a traditional counselor who may or may not “specialize” in self-injury. Counselors don’t have to specialize in self-injury to be able to treat it because often the reason we hurt ourselves is tied to other things, which the counselor might be very skilled with (abuse, drugs, trauma, specific personality disorders, divorce, etc…). Help is out there regardless of finances – we just have to learn to take what help we can get when we can find it.
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I have been exactly where you are. I was a college student taking an overload of classes (20 credits) working part time to just pay rent, getting food from the local foodbank to eat something, and si several times a day. I was told that I needed to get help or I would be kicked out of both my programs at school. I was seeing a therapist a few times during the semester who also said that I needed more help then she could give me. I spent time on the internet at school looking for help financially to get more treatment. I had been in the psych ward of the hospital and was headed to the state hospital when a nurse and the psychiatrist put extra effort into finding me financial help.
I was able to find some help and I know that you can also. Since you are able to get to the internet, do some searching for financial help for mental illness. There is alot out there.
Good Luck!