i feel like SI is taking over my life its like a daily part of my life its always on my mind and is all i can concentrate on i dont want to stop SI  because its how i express my feelings and emotions nobody i know understands why i do it they just think its a phase and i feel if i stop the people around me will try to control my life and control me which they are all ready trying to do i feel trapped and the box keeps geting smaller and its not going to get any bigger i want people in my family to understand me and wots going on in my head but i cant talk to anyone in my family so far they hate my guts does any one have any ideas?please i really need to talk to someone that understands me