I have been wanting to attend S.A.F.E. for years now and it is finally going to happen! I leave for the program next Tuesday! I am excited because I want to learn to live without SI and have a future full of success. I have been SI for about 20 years and I am 27 years old. I am in school and doing very well as far as my education goes, but having surgery after surgery on injuries I have done to myself. It has gotten to a severe, scary level. Every time I think that SI has become my enemy, it seems like my only friend when I am having a tough time. I want more than anything to stop, but I cannot do it outpatient. When I heard about this program, I knew it was for me. There is no help like it anywhere near me. I am ready to work hard and succeed in stopping SI. I want to know that all the work I am doing to find a job in my dream career and better my life will not be cut short or be in jeopardy. I want to love myself and my body. I am scared because I know it will be the hardest thing I have ever done and I will have to develop a whole new way of thinking.