i feel trapped doing this but i also feel safe and secure i reguarly lash out at myself for no reason other than i hate myself my anger frustration and sadness go deep ive tried escaping but ive failed i have no support my family have given me no support and despise me i am trying to break free but i fail its like im trapped in a box and its getting smaller and smaller and eventually it will crush me this is when i will end my own life im trying for this not to happen i hope it doesnt