Well its been just over 9 months since i lost my husband, and i’ve been SI for just over a year now, its been a few months, but tonight has been a bad night.. i saw a video of my husband as a child, and my god does he look like our son. The looks, to the way he walks, my son is a straight immitation of his daddy. I S.I. tonight, not once but twice, and i’m feeling like a total failure. I know its wrong, and yet i still do it.. 🙁