I must say ive been a “S.I” for going on 5 years now and i never told anyone because i was scared that they would think that im crazy.. but last night i almost went along with killing my self….. i got so scared that i had to tell my mother…. now she think its her fault and shes cryin and now its making me want to S.I. my self again!!! I really dont know what to do at this point. because no one around me understand how it feels to S.I. myself when i am hurting from pain…. I jus wish i could understand this whole thing you know??
Don’t worry you’re not alone, and your mom will figure out that its not her fault, she’s afraid right now. She doesn’t understand, but adults don’t like not understanding things so it scares them, just tell her that it’s not about her, it’s about you and your health and safety, she’ll understand that.
It’s ok. I think alomst everybody on this site as gone threw their own version of this. Don’t worry ’bout yur mom, she’ll come to terms with it if you explain it to her more. Your never gonna be alone in the whole S.I. thing you have the people on here to back you up. If you need to talk more than you can email me at
marz.is.what.they.call.me@hotmail.com
You are not crazy. You and I and many others just have less constructive and rather unhealthy ways of coping with life, but we are not crazy.
Your mom might be blaming herself because it is the easiest thing to do besides blame you. She doesn’t know what to do or say right now – which is a normal reaction. Her daughter is hurting herself and she can’t make you stop hurting just by putting a bandaid over it and distracting you for a little while with something new.
Give your mom a little time and try and ask her for what you need specifically, whether it is the fact you want to get some counseling or that you need medical help for an injury or… Tell your mom how she can help you, if you know what type of help you are wanting to try or are willing to consider. Don’t tell your mom what to do to help you, but tell her what your needs are and ask her to help you get some help.