I must say ive been a “S.I” for going on 5 years now and i never told anyone because i was scared that they would think that im crazy.. but last night i almost went along with killing my self….. i got so scared that i had to tell my mother…. now she think its her fault and shes cryin and now its making me want to S.I. my self again!!! I really dont know what to do at this point. because no one around me understand how it feels to S.I. myself when i am hurting from pain…. I jus wish i could understand this whole thing you know??