this is a poem i wrote in my dark days of S.I.speeding faster and faster spining in circles seeing everything that is nothing all at once i see images and fiends of life and lies i see 16 years of time wasted seeing dreams of my death disturbing thoughts come at me like bullets confronted by happiness with nowhere to hide anger overtakes me in seconds like a rabid dog trapped in the corner i fight off the sickness of guilt and overcome all emotion …again thoughts going in all directions sh*t im falling with nothing to grab hold to i see people i care about i try to call out and still i fall unable to stop into the abyss of my own demented thoughts i plumet only to find out ive failed my wrist is harmed again