I hate the fact that I even have to post this friggin’ message. I graduated from SAFE (twice, actually). I was in Chicago in 2002 and TX in 2007. I went back for a little bit of relapse prevention. I have been safe and SI free since my admission in October. (September was my last injury). I was SI free for nearly 5 years in between my admissions.
I am really struggling right now. A lot of ‘life stuff’ has happened lately. I was laid off of my job of nearly 5 years. I am just isolating myself. I know. That is a really BAD idea. I have been staying in bed most hours of the day and night in order to stay safe. As long as I am in bed, I cannot hurt myself. I have an agreement with myself to never injure while in bed. Bed is safe.
I wish that I had words of encouragement for all of you out there. But the truth is, I am nearly at my rope’s end. I don’t know what I should do. Posting this is ridiculous. I know that.
But if any of the Denton staff is reading this, “Howdy from OH!” I miss you all. Maybe I will try painting.
Thanks for listening.