i almost feel as if i should give up sometimes. i feel disappointed with myself. i love my family, but i still feel like a let down. even to my friends. i find myself getting pissy over nothing. i’m taking meds, but they don’t seem to help. just make me feel more disconnected. i look in the mirror everyday thinking what a disgrace i am, looking at the scars that cover me, and the blob that i am. i feel like sh*t. half the time i can’t even focus. i fear that i will never do anything with my life. i can’t even be serious. i sit there and act crazy when all is going to hell, and my friends are screaming bullocks at me. i wish i could just crawl under my sheets and check out from the world, or lock myself away from the hospital and just let me go crazy, and let it all out. maybe suicide is the only way out. selfish i know. it’s nothing to do with attention seeking, but a way to clear my head and whatever. but who cares. i don’t exist.
i know how you feel…ive only been clean for a month and this is the longest ive made it ever. not a lot of people know that i S.I…. and every one keeps calling me a disappointment…i just wanna die when they say it…i hate that word….what i want you to know is your not hopeless nor are you a disappointment! you dont know it yet but there is so much you can and will do in your life, to help others or do anything. no one is hopeless… and i know that we all can make a difference big or little…we just have to give our selves a chance….good luck and stay strong…dont forget you are a person too!
i understand. my parents yell at me. friends act like they hate me. i agree with xxstill_herexx no one is hopeless and we can make a difference too. mayb when we grow up well b doing great things in our lifes or maybe well just b helping a few friends. but no matter what u matter. so be stong.
you need to have a whatever attitude and try to be like whatever.im not asking you to forget cause people can say pretty hurtful sh*t to you and not give a damn what the outcome will be.and sometimes i feel like going to sleep and never having to wake up again.know what i mean?just tell yourself that in life you will never make your kids feel as horrible as your parents make you feel and remember that you are about to do things that no one thought possibe.just think of yourself as like the a world revelutionist or something