my mom told me she thinks i have an ear infection and she is taking me to the doctor tomorrow. normally i’d freak a bit about this but than realize its no big deal i’ll just wear my gloves or a jacket and some jeans. but i cant this time. its supossed to be really warm tomorrow and all my long sleves and my causal jackets are in the wash and it would be a little strange to be in my dress jacket. i cant just say i feel because well as sick as it is the scars spell words and stuff. i kinda had one of my breakdowns this weekend and went to far so now i have words on my arm and my doctor will see them. my parents dont no i SI and if they did they’d be horrified. they think i just want to help the people who do because a couple of my close friends SI i too. they dont know that i was one of the first of them to SI. i just hope that my doctor doesnt see…