I feel like I’m not strong enough to stop. Yet. I don’t know what to say but i feel like i have to say something. I just want pain so bad. I want to know that I’m alive and S.I. is just a small memo. And i really dont know how to explain MY personal feeling. I mean i smile when i think about it. I smile when im about to do it. I smile after i do it. But low and behold i wake up in the morning and just think, “What the fu*k did i do…?” Although, it’s not my time to stop, it IS time for me to realize i am strong enough too. I forget love myself too often…  Keep writing everyone. I love to read it. <3C