my cousin had her baby yesterday, same age as me. i cant be happy i try to but its like i always dwell on my problems. he is so cute i dnt no wt im going to do. i just want stop thinking about myself, im so selfish and should be there for her. i always think bout S.I., i cnt do it, i cnt be there, wt is wrong w/ me? i love my family but i cant do it