i kinda feel unwanted like all the time lately
i dont know what it is, it all started with my youth paster telling me that he didnt feel it was a good idea for me go go on the mission trip this august. cuz “i’m not ready” because i hurt myself at church one time b/c my friend was totally hurting me….etc…and idk he just made me feel like he didnt want me to go…idk
it just kinda hurts…so i told him i didnt wanna go if i wasnt wanted…and he was like “its not that we dont want you…” but he didnt really clarify…so idk if i believe him or not

*trying to stay strong*