sometimes I think I am going to go crazy if I dont S.I.. I need help but I dont know how to stop…… My counselor wants me to try to find my trigger to why I am S.I.? But it varies….sometimes I S.I. because my urges are to strong to fight.  Sometimes I S.I. to punish myself. sometimes I S.I. because it feels wrong not to S.I.. Or sometimes I S.I. because I dont want to remember or think about everything. I am sad all the time and dont want to feel any of it because of everything going on(inside my head that is). I feel like I will go crazy sometimes if I don’t S.I.. I am trying to get into the S.A.F.E. intenise program but that is a big if!!!! I don’t know how to stop by myself……….?