so yesturday was not the best day. i was supposed to go to a friends house but i coulndt go because my sister didnt want to. so pretty much my life is if my sister doesnt want to go or do it i cant . its like i cant pee with out being there. i was talking to my mom bout collage and how i want to own my own bakery i lvoe to bake and she said you might eat all of your stuff and your not total thin. i thought i was  i mean i weigh 118 didnt think that was bad but i guess it is so i never really tried to throw up i mean i tried 2-3 times in the past but she just mad me feel discusted with my body and it was like well i have to get rid of it now.