Tomorrow will make 1 week.It’s like everytime I actually make it far with my goals I mess up again.If I wouldn’t have injured myself last Tuesday then it would have made 3 weeks.And now sitting here I’m like beating myself up about it and only making myself worse and having me feel worse and worse. Then it’s like this is the way I feel when I start injuring myself and I don’t want to start that again. It’s like I’m almost there but I have this horrible feeling that I’m not going to make it and so I’m like I’m not going to make it anyway so what’s the point of waiting but I know once I do it it’s only going to make things worse.Plus I still have scars from last week so I have that memory and it’s like killing me inside. I’m trying to figure out what can cause me so much pain to want to hurt myself and I can’t even figure it out for myself.I just need sum1 to talk to I just feel like…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

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