=sighs and look around= I hope this doesn’t sound pathetic and I hope no indifference is brought upon me by others. While I may not be one self injury it does cross my mind a lot as well as other thoughts. I injured myself for the second time the other day because of stress, things that I was thinking about and just the way I felt in general. I felt hopeless, worthless, like I didn’t matter, and like no one cared. I looked back on the past relationship that I had and I see how much I messed up in it by lying and cheating, 2 major important things that should never happen in a relationship with the someone you love. The pain, the misery, the heartbrokeness, all of it brought upon myself by myself has caused me to fall into a void. One that seems to overtake my mind and my soul and tell me things, things that lead to the thoughts of self injury of any form. While my body is not lined with scars, my mind and my heart and my insides are for sure.
I am here because I need help and I need advice. I don’t know if she will find and read this or not, but here it goes. She is my ex, the love of my life. She has a situation with Self Injury herself and it has been going on for quite along time, but recently it seems to have gotten worse. It is almost readily on her mind to injure because of stress and other things that are on her mind, most the same as mine. I talk to her all the time and I know her better than anyone else, I have been trying to help her with her situation as much as possible even though we are miles away. I know this is something that takes time to get to go away and not to do it anymore, but now I am at a loss for words. I don’t know what to say anymore, I try to make her feel happy and wanted. She says she knows that I love her and that I care for and I truly and honestly do in all of my being. I am very supportive of her of what she does esp. trying to quit. I talk to her like a person and I tell her how I feel about things that are brought up in conversation, but it seems like she shuts me out, like she doesn’t want to or know how to open up to me. She tells me that I am her strength and that I am all that she has, that I am her will to want to stop and this I can not falter or deny, I am her strength and I will do whatever it takes to see her through her problems in life for I promised I would never leave her side.
Please, someone help me and give me advice for what else I can do.
hi,
i dont know if this will work for you but, i know that this year wile my boy friend was away at college my adiction got worse, not realy becouse he was away, just becouse of a lot of realy bad crap that happend this year, i am not nearly out of the woulds yet but id like to think that now im getting better, the best thing my boyfriend did for me, is tell me that the next time if i didnt do something to get better he would, he sed he would eather tell my parents or call the school, HE WAS NOT BLUFFING, i ennded up telling all by my self, i ennded up geting help, and it was hard and he could have ennded up losing me by telling if i where that type, he cared about me enuf to lose me, and i dont know if that kind of thing will work for you but, i thought you might be able to take something from awer experence, and i hope your sichuation gets better.
as for you S.I., plezz dont, i know that alot of people its like smoking, some people can smoke all the time out or just soshily and diside to stop and its no big deal there done, and then there are people who cant stop nomatter what thay try. the difference is that society understans an adiction to sigarets, not sharps.
it so much harder to seek help becouse of how its vued by society, please i know how easy it is to take that way out, if i didnt i wouldent have to wory about wether or not my prom corsage will cover most of the scars, or if my little sister will finly ask where the marks are comeing from. i think you know as well as i do its not worth it, and the sooner you stop the better
plezz STAY STRONG
best hopes
EB
But herein lies the problem, her mother has seen the marks and 3 of the few people she talks to know about it, but no one is willing to help her, but me. She tells me that I am all she has, but at times it doesn’t feel like it. Even though we are not dating anymore she doesn’t realize it, but her and I have a strong emotional connection. I can’t tell her mom or even threaten her like that because it will make her lose all the trust she has put back in me that I had lost in the beginning. I don’t want to lose her by any means and I can’t let her go.
then you need to find her help other that parents
there are programs
dr.’s
clinics
anonomus theripie
all kinds of opshins
this is a big thing your in over your head and i know thats hard to edmit but thats why your even on the website you realise that
you need to find opshions, find ways
get what she needs to get better
if she wants to quit then shel try till she finds what works for her, and you can be there every step of the way
google it for local things, programs theripists, psycologists, socail workers, enyone who can help
just find options
The problem with the majority of that is that it all costs money, something she doesn’t really have because of the job that she currently holds. The psychiatrist that she saw wants to put her on some anti depressant, but the long term effect of it if I remember correctly was either liver or kidney failure, so she has the option to get a blood test done and take the meds or don’t do either and she cat afford either of them. I know I am way in over my head dear, trust me, I know what I am getting into before I do it, that is why I am trying to find help, but I also know that if I try talking to her about it she will cop an attitude with me and get all pissed and mad at me, the last thing that I need to happen.
ok i need to go, i hope iv bin some kind of help if you want to talk more my e-mail is
e13handtalkin@aim.com
sory about my horible spelling (im dislexic)
STAY STRONG
EB
Thank you very much, I hope you aren’t the only one who has some kind of advice for me and don’t worry about it, I understood you and thank you.
email me anytime. we can talk.
tkingbcksnday76@aol.com