I’ve been doing really well latley

i’ve gone 20 days!! and it feels great

But really good days are starting to fade…my dad is getting to me again, and my sister is leaving me for college soon, i dont know what it is but everything always ends up doing this…slowly falls apart i mean.

I Love that i’m doing so well and i DONT wanna go back to day zero

that would be the WORST feeling ever!!!!

i guess i’m just loosing it…Losing hope, and trust in God…no, not in God…In myself