first time posting here…so this has been an ongoing thing for some time now. im back in therapy for the second time, different person. not for doing what i do but for other things i guess. but talking about these things makes me want to do it more…and i have been doing it more. my dirty little secret and then some. the shame is intense. however doing this is slowly becoming enough. its not enough to hurt. there needs to more. sometimes im afraid of what i might find. im scheduled for another session this week. but i become stricken with panic and can barely get my words out. time wasted. im sinking and its dark.