At this point in my life I don’t really know what to do. I’m wanting to attend S.A.F.E because I feel that I am ready and that I need to put this behind me…but I’m afraid that if I take that step, I won’t have anything left. I started doing all of this when I was ten years old. It was like I magically found a way to live even when I didn’t want to exist at all. I’ve injured both the outside and inside of my body. As of yet I’ve been self-injury free for a month, and it feels nice but the anxiety that comes with it is just too much. I keep telling myself over and over that I can find a way to “cure” myself, but I haven’t yet gotten to that point. I can’t understand why I can’t stop, since I want to stop. I’m ready to stop. But I can’t. Should be so easy. I get so tired of hearing people say, “this is only something that children do.” Where do I stand with all of this? When I starting harming, I was a child. I was 10. I’m 26 and I’m still sneaking off to do this, so what does that make me now?