this week has been hard. spring break is supossed to be fun and it has been but so many bad things have happened in the past around this time and it’s been makign things very difficult. it’s getting a lot warmer put and it’s getting harder to hind the injuries. i can not keep making up excusses. i know i have to stop but i can’t not now. i know it doesn’t help but i rather stop another time. i don’t even really want to stop at all. it’s just confussing. this is so bad i feel horrible and weak but i can’t think of anything else to do. i know theres help but i dotn want it not. PLEASE if anyone has any suggestions please comment.
this sounds like a lecture but really if you need to injure this badly, if you absolutly rely on the injuring, then you do need to seek help. don’t let this thing dominate your life because injuring probably didn’t start out as the problem but it seems as if it is now. you don’t have to talk to a parent but talk to SOMEONE. you shouldn’t have to hide the scars…
It sounds like this problem is getting worse for you. I don’t think it would be very smart of me to encourage your injuring when it is obviously causing a lot of stress and anxiety for you. If you’re not ready to stop injuring but think yuo are ready to reach out, I would say to get into some kind of therapy. My therapist has never once told me to stop injuring. She even recognizes that it is an option. A therapist will only try and teach yo healthy ways to cope with your feelings, they won’t try and take away the one coping skill you have. They won’t try to parent you or act disappointed in you. If they do, it’s time to look for a new therapaist. Only you can keep yourself safe. God Bless.
-Kellie
thank you. honestly i wrote this last night and i ended up not S.I., so it’s a start. i know that doesn’t mean i won’t want to but i had a major breakdown when i wrote this and i just need to feel like someone was listening. thank you for those who comented for listening. i’ll keep writting i’m glad i’m doing this. i think it’s helping.