this week has been hard. spring break is supossed to be fun and it has been but so many bad things have happened in the past around this time and it’s been makign things very difficult. it’s getting a lot warmer put and it’s getting harder to hind the injuries. i can not keep making up excusses. i know i have to stop but i can’t not now. i know it doesn’t help but i rather stop another time. i don’t even really want to stop at all. it’s just confussing.  this is so bad i feel horrible and weak but i can’t think of anything else to do. i know theres help but i dotn want it not. PLEASE if anyone has any suggestions please comment.