i’m 15 years old. i’ve been injuring for about 5 months. i’ve never told anyone, ever, of what i do. i don’t know how i would explain it to anyone. My life doesn’t seem bad, at all, to anyone who would look at it from any other point of view besides my own. until about 2 weeks ago i didn’t believe i was actually a ‘self injurer’ but it hit me hard then. i’m not happy with my life, and i’ve found i don’t believe i’ll ever find happiness. I want to be able to live to be happy. But nowadays the only times i feel joy is after i injure myself. i go in and out of states of depression often, and after i injure it seems to bring me out of it. not forever though, obviously. I couldn’t even get out of bed today to go to school, so i stayed home and tried to figure out what was wrong with me. i planned on refraining from injuring myself but I still did. it woke me up, and i feel like i’m on a high now. but i don’t want to have to do this. i’m looking for any type of advice from anyone. i’ve never gotten any before, and i’m questioning whether or not i should seek help from a therapist.
if anyone could offer any type of help towards me, i would appreciate it more than anything in the worlddd.